Being Bold

The day of my heart attack is the day I cried out to God that I was not ready to die! I had no voice or strength at that moment, so all I could do was yell in my mind over and over again that I was not ready to die! I will never forget the feeling of sensation that I felt come over my body and then watching the numbers and lines on the EKG monitor start to fade away. I screamed so loud in my head until I wasn’t able to any longer. I was ready to put up a fight but didn’t have the strength, so being Bold was my only option.

Ever since that day, God has challenged me in so many ways and I continue to challenge God as well. My recovery took six months, but my transformation lasted two to three years. The self-development I went through during my recovery period and after literally made me the person I am today.

A couple years after my recovery and as a result of my self-development and personal transformation , I found myself going through a divorce. Something I never thought would happen. God had different plans for me and my life I guess, because I realized how I was being held back. I realized that I am enough and my life matters. More importantly, I learned that I can’t change anyone except myself; and that’s where the transformation began.

“In the day when I cried out, You answered me, and made me bold with strength in my soul.” ~ Psalm 138:3

I grew closer to God it seemed every day through my daily devotional time. I began journalling to God daily as well; and I challenged Him to send me signs. Hearts and crosses were something I always looked for or gravitated to. So one day when I was walking in the woods to get away from all the noise in my head, I was looking for some signs from God that I was on the right path when I stumbled upon a heart-shaped rock, or so I thought. I wasn’t sure though if that was a true sign from God because the rock wasn’t clearly in the shape of a heart. So I again challenged God and literally asked Him out loud if that was the best He could do. Immediately, I thought to myself, ‘How dare I ask that of God’. Then, within thirty seconds later, He sent me a Sign that was obviously His amazing work, because only God could have pulled that off! From that day forward, He continually sends me His Best and I’m not afraid to ask for what I want.

I challenge you now to Be Bold! Be confident in expecting God’s abundance and be grateful for everything He has given you. As He continues to bless you, He gives you strength as you draw closer still to Him knowing that He is always with you, for you, and is leading you on His path for His Will to be done through you. Again, I say, Be Bold! Let His Light shine through you and bless others!

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Is This The Best You Can Do God?

I’ve never challenged God like this before, but this particular day I was so distraught and in a pretty bad place. I had left my husband after 18 years of marriage, was living on my own, and had started to get back into the dating scene once my divorce was in progress. Got mixed up with someone that I knew wouldn’t amount to anything serious, which is what I wanted. Dating was not my thing, and while we had fun and enjoyed each other’s company, it just wasn’t going to work. I am someone who has a lot of love to give and I don’t like to be alone. I also wasn’t going to settle for just anyone, and at this point and time, I was very confused. I started talking with my husband again actually considering going back to my marriage, but I knew that wasn’t the best thing for me and my health. Not that he mistreated me, it was just too stressful dealing with his addictions in life. Granted I still loved and do love this man and he will always have a very special place in my heart. That is what was so painful and confusing for me.

I used to think I was a very strong woman and some days, I still feel that I am. This day, I was not. I decided to take my puppy on a walk through the woods to a quiet spot I had recently found to be with God and my thoughts. It was while on this walk and in my quiet time with God where I am always looking for Signs from God to know that I am where I am supposed to be and that I’m following His path and Will for me.

God started communicating with me in my twenties with crosses and I would see them in the strangest of places. Then in later years, He added heart-shaped rocks in sharing His Signs with me. This 22nd day of June, 2019 was my birthday and the presents I received from God changed my life!

I was walking through the woods and found some trees that had fallen and formed a perfect cross. I had to stop for a minute and just take it in and naturally take a picture to capture the moment.

Then later I was combing the waters edge looking for heart shaped rocks; and, like on most ocassions, one appears. This rock though wasn’t perfect and it left me doubting that it was truly His Sign or if I was just hoping it was His Sign. I wanted something more; something much better. As I looked at the rock in question, I asked out loud, “is this all you can do God, can’t you do better?”

It was then not even 30 seconds this second bigger rock came into view and I was blown away!!! Not only does it have a perfectly shaped heart engraved within the rock but there are markings that looks like the river ran through it almost in the form of a cross! Do you see it??? God is always with us and He hears us. We just have to have Faith!

Ever since this day in the woods, I have received so many more heart-shaped rocks to add to my collection and I know without a doubt that God is continuing to give me His absolute best! I know He is always with me, and when I am not strong, He is carrying me and will get me through. This way of thinking has gotten me through these past couple of years and I am so grateful for finally trusting God and giving Him all of my Faith for His Will to be done in my life.

As a result, my life has turned around in such an amazing way. I found my soul mate and we have so much in common. We are so good for each other that we make each other a better person. God is first in our lives and He has brought us together during this pandemic in a way that we thought was impossible. He has also pulled my son through a horrific accident where he experienced a brain bleed resulting in traumatic brain injury and severe concussion. We refused to be negative and only spoke of what we wanted for him and his recovery and within two weeks he was back home where he belonged and on the road to a full recovery. In just three short days, we will be moving to Grovetown, Georgia to be closer to my mother and brother. This is a new start for us in a new State and I know that God is leading us every step of the way!

I encourage you to look for your Signs from God with an open mind and an open heart. He speaks to each of us differently and a heart or a cross might not be your thing. Maybe you have a thing for feathers, or clouds, or a specific bird…. whatever it is it is something that God knows means something to you or interests you. Ask Him for a sign and see what shows up. I’d love to hear about it when it does.

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Stay On The Tracks

There are times in our life when the path ahead is a blur. The fog sets in and we are blinded by confusion, frustration, and pain that hurts so deep we can not understand trackswhere we are supposed to turn. I’ve felt this first hand, and I’m sure you have too. Sometimes God has to take us to our knees and break us before we remember that only He knows the way. It’s during our darkest hour where we turn to God and talk to Him, begging for His help because we know we can’t move forward without Him. What we need to remember during our conversations with God, is to take the time to listen to what He has to say to us.

It’s not a one way conversation. You might think it is all about you, but God knows the big picture and loves each and every one of us and wants the best for all of us. He loves us unconditionally, but He wants us to turn to Him, talk with Him, take the extra time to hear His soft voice directing your path. He wants us to ask Him for what we want and to believe it is on its way – if it is His Will! “If it is His Will” is the key point to remember here and where it gets really tough.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”    ~ Jeremiah 29:11-13

What we want, is not always His Will! Like I said, only He knows the big picture and how our desire will effect everyone and everything. So, when our desire is not His Will, we need to understand there is a reason and even though we may be temporarily suffering, we are also becoming stronger individuals when we rely on God’s love to get us through. For He is always with us guiding us, protecting us, and at times like this, even carrying us!

“More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”    ~ Romans 5:3-5

Close your eyes, take a deep breath and reach out for His hand. Imagine His embrace. Feel His strength embrace you while you take another deep breath and open your eyes slowly. You will feel His peace as your shoulders drop and know you are loved! Practice this as much as you need and the fog will lift. The steps ahead will seem easier to take. Just keep your feet on the tracks that God has placed in front of you! He is giving you strength, endurance, character, hope, and eventually to a place of peace knowing that His Will is the best for everyone!

Look back at the struggles you have already lived through in your lifetime. He was there with you then. You survived, and you will this time as well!

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”    ~ Jeremiah 29:11

Traveling The Road Alone

“Signs of a Life” – Part VII

 

Rugged CrossingTraveling the road alone is not an easy task. In fact, it’s quite lonely. The road ahead is full of uncertainty, twists and turns, fog, and lots of pot holes. You tend to second doubt yourself all the time. Did I make the right decision? Am I crazy? What was I thinking?

I went from having that hug I needed, to having no one to hug. Someone to talk to, to echos in an empty house. I never really lived alone before and this was definitely taking its toll on me.

What did I do? Well, I dove into my church and made some of my own friends. I started holding more events for Young Living and built those relationships up even more as well. I then realized that some of those puzzle pieces were fitting into place and I was able to realize why God brought Young Living into my life. I met so many amazing friends. Friends which have and still help get me through the mud puddles of life. He knew what He was doing and I am so grateful for these relationships. In fact the woman behind this lens, is one of those ladies that I was able to share my complete story with and has inspired me to document my story.

You see, when we are in the moment, the road ahead doesn’t always show itself but we have to continue to move forward in faith and hope knowing that God’s light is just around the corner. When we look back, the path seems much clearer as those puzzle pieces have come together. It’s like you dropped the bread crumbs that you can look back on. Though you have no idea where you will be dropping the next piece of bread until you get there.

I realized that I was never really alone because I had God with me the whole time. Our relationship keeps growing stronger and stronger and I am so thankful for His presence. He has given me many signs throughout this time in my life. Be open to recognizing the signs He gives you as they come in many different forms. I’ll share some of those I received in my next blog….

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6

Do You Know Who Your Guardian Angels Are?

“Signs of a Life” – Part III

2019_04_08_2019_03_29_Narrative Project_1932__DSC0225During my recovery in the hospital, I also learned that God is not the only one watching over me from above. When I was in and out of sleep after my heart attack, I went into a dream state where I saw three individuals sitting on a bench much like this one. Except, the bench was just above my bed sitting in the clouds and I could see many silhouettes of people, whom I believed to be angels in the distance. I could see the sides of the first two gentleman closest to me as they were sitting there just waiting. I recognized right away the first man was my father. He looked exactly like he did back in the 70’s with his long sideburns, yet he could not look down at me. The second man, a bit taller than my dad, was my stepfather. He was looking over my dad and down on me with such a loving, yet concerned, look. The third man, I could not see, but somehow I just knew in my heart it was my grandfather. That surprised me more than anything, because for so long I thought my grandmother was one of my guardian angels. Oh, I’m sure she’s still looking down and watching, but this would be the second time now that my grandfather has come to me in a dream just like this and the only time I have dreamed about him since his death.

There is something to be said about the power of three and this holds true for me as well. Three has always been my lucky number and a number I gravitate to. I love to give three kisses good night or goodbye – one is never enough!  One night when I was so stressed out, I felt the presence of someone sitting on my bed behind me three times. It was as if one person sat down and got up, and then another, and then yet another. I swore someone was there; but every time I looked, there was no one. I was awake and it kinda freaked me out a little. Eventually, I just brushed it aside and thought it must be my grandmother checking in on me. After this dream in the hospital though, I now know it was my three guardian angels blessing me and letting me know everything was going to be alright.

Do you know who your guardian angels are? How do they show up to you? Some leave dimes, some show up as butterflies, feathers, hearts. Our loved ones find many ways to show us they are still among us and with us. Never fear for they are still very near! This dream I had in the hospital, it was very real and I no longer have fear of dying. I know my loved ones will be with me one day and we will all meet on the other side – the never ending journey with God!

God Is That The Best You Could Do?

For a few days I had been struggling with doubt and in my daily quiet time with God the other day, which happened to be my birthday, I asked Him for a sign – a sign that was so clear that I was following His Plan. Later that day, I decided it was way too nice of a day to stay in the house. I packed a bag for a hike and gathered my dog and jumped in the car.

3I have a quiet place I found in a park not far from my house where I love to sit and be with God listening to the trickle of the water of the stream as it flows on by. When I am in the moment with God, I am always looking for hearts 1and crosses. Today was no different! I was combing the waters edge looking for heart shaped rocks and as always, he sent me one. Today though, I wanted something better. As I looked at the rock I said, “is this all you can do God, can’t you do better?”

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And within not even 30 seconds, this second bigger rock came into view and I was blown away!!!

Not only does it have a heart within the rock but there are markings that look like the river ran through it, almost in the form of a cross! Do you see it???

God is always with us and He hears us. We just have to have Faith! I will add these to my collection for sure!

Thank you God for your Birthday gift today!!

 

“To fall in love with God is the greatest of all romances;

to seek him, the greatest adventure;

to find him, the great human achievement.” ~ Raphael Simon

The Rock

When I realize I need to get grounded and spend time with God, I typically turn on my spiritual playlist and start singing and praising him through song. I also love to get outside for a hike back to nature, or a walk looking up into the clouds. I love to look for signs from God, which typically come in the form of hearts, crosses, and affirmations. The other day I was driving down the road singing along with my playlist, and everywhere I looked I found a cross. They were actual crosses, or I saw a cross in a light post on the side of the road, or a cross sign, and even things that weren’t crosses, my eyes found a way to turn them into a cross. It was apparent that God was with me and I felt so blessed. I felt like I could tackle anything.

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That evening in my quiet time with God I was thanking Him for his presence earlier that day in my journal. I journal to God every day giving Him thanks and asking for His help in areas where I need support, or sending up blessings and prayers for loved ones. On that journal entry, I ended it writing, “You are my Rock!”, and then it hit me and I remembered the heart shaped rock I found a week or so ago while I was out hiking. Moments like that truly stop my heart for a second and I realize what He has done for me in my life and the blessings He is still sending my way! He truly is my rock, my fortress, my everything!

God speaks to us all differently, sometimes we just have to be open to hearing his soft voice or recognizing those signs He sends us. I encourage you to look for the signs, listen for His voice, and reach out because He is always there!

Looking For God’s Presence

log crossI have found that when I am open to Signs from God, I actually find more of them! To be open to finding them, we need to focused on Him and His presence. He is always with us. Though, when we aren’t focused on Him, our thoughts may wander. We may go astray. When you recognize this, turn your thoughts back to God. Look for the signs. They are there. God speaks to us in many different ways. The signs we receive may be different for so many of us.

For me, the signs I receive that leave me feeling like He is present, are crosses, hearts, butterflies, words of affirmation, and when listening to my spiritual music!

The other week when I was feeling down, I took a hike in the woods and the signs were definitely present. I received many that had me feeling so blessed. Being in nature always brings me closer to God and by the time I got back home I felt so blessed and in such a state of peacefulness.

To many, the picture above would have just lookedheart rock like two trees laying in the woods that had fallen down. To me though, when you zoom in on the picture, there laid a cross. Later on, I stopped by the stream and sat for a while. This is when I found a heart-shaped rock…another sign from God. When I recognize these signs, it’s like I stop in my tracks and I lose my breath for a second. Then I just take a deep breath in and know that God is with me! He cares, and He wants me to know that everything will be ok!

Life can be overwhelming, as I’m sure you know. Stress can be so overbearing and can truly affect your health in so many ways. I’ve learned this the hard way and am still learning how to better take care of myself.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” ~ Phillipians 4:6

After I had a heart attack almost 3 years ago, God has slowly been transforming me into the person He truly created me to be. I’ve found more natural solutions to help ease my anxieties and stress. I’ve learned how to listen to my body, recognize the signs of those trigger points that tend to appear letting me know I need to slow down and just breathe, and I’ve learned to rely so much more on God for everything!  He has shown me how to remove the toxins from my life, and that includes all types of toxins. Yes, harsh chemicals, but also toxic relationships that bring me down. Now is the time for me. A time for healing and restoration.

I realize that I’m not alone in this struggle and the struggle is real, so this is why I share. I want everyone to know they aren’t alone and that there is a better way to live a life with less stress. Maybe not less stress, because life happens right, but managed stress and knowing you are not alone. God never promised us a life without trials. It’s these trials that make us stronger. Recognizing my desire to share and help others through these stressful times, God has blessed me with the ability to be vulnerable and transparent, and I have taken this to another level recently.

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I’ve started leaving my own signs behind hoping that another believer will recognize this as a sign from God as well. I’m praying that someone walking along the same path may run into the crosses I leave behind and recognize it too as a Sign from God. A cross meant to touch their heart so that they too stop breathing for a second and realize that God is with them in that very moment and that they are not alone.

Blessing another believer gives me such peace and gratitude. Blessing someone who may be struggling with their belief into believing, or even wondering, ‘is this a sign?’, brings me joy and hope for a brighter future for so many more believers sharing their love of God and their story!

Learn to Look For the Signs

When you love someone enough to let them go in peace, it can be very hard to make such a decision. Whether that someone is a person you loved dearly, or man’s best friend who has been by your side through thick and thin for 14 years, making the decision to let them go because you know it is for their best is one of the hardest things you can do.  This year I have had to make both of these decisions and both were extremely hard!

Just the other day, my son and I had to make the decision to put down our best dog ever! This poor dog was given away by someone walking through the Mall offering this adorable little puppy a free home. My son’s friend took the dog and kept her for a few days while he was in college until he realized he couldn’t possibly care for this dog in a dorm. That’s when my son decided to bring her home, and at 2am in the morning, dropped this adorable little puppy on my bed and said, “look what I brought home”.

Who knows where she would have wound up had God not had a plan to bring her into our life. She gave us all so much love and joy. She was always there by my side and it didn’t matter how many times I went up and down the steps, she was right there! When I moved into my own townhome recently, I went back to get her for a visit and decided I was going to keep her with me so that she could have some peace in her old age until it was her time. Just three weeks ago, the vet thought she would have another two years. And that’s when we both started to Rally and were so happy together. We started taking walks and enjoying each other’s company even so much more until her Rally was up. What a difference a day made to her tired old body!

Deciding to let her go was very painful, but you don’t want to see them suffer. Thanking God that we have the ability to put our animals out of their pain and suffering and wishing we could do the same for those we love who are suffering in their last days. It only seems fair, but I will stop at that because I could go on and on.

What I really want to share with you though is just how amazing it is when you have God in your life and have a relationship with Him that you are continually building on. It’s like the closer you become to God, the more He does for you. The more you recognize His presence. The more you recognize Signs from God. You learn more all the time how to be still and listen for His soft voice. You feel His presence and you just know that all is going to be ok because you have Faith in Him and through His Holy Spirit that He will guide us on the path that is right. Faith that should we stray the wrong way, He will still work it out for the betterment of all.

Then one day you sit back and you are able to see the puzzle pieces come together and just how God worked it out even when you thought it was supposed to happen another way at the time. Even though we may fight for what we want, if it is not God’s plan, it will not happen!  God has perfect timing and the death of my beloved Dixie was a perfect timing as well. And as I sit and look at this picture my son just posted on Facebook, it is clear as day to me that God is with Dixie and she is happy once again and is still with us. The sun shining down through the trees with the Cross so bright, and then the orb in the bottom of the picture is where I can see Dixie’s eye is several different phases.

You may not be able to see what I see, but it is these signs that we all receive and see differently. We just have to be open to seeing them. God’s Signs are everywhere. I find them in the clouds, the sun, the wind, the rain, and I’m always looking for crosses and hearts everywhere. Today, it was this picture!

Dixie's Eye

 

 

 

 

Break Down Your Walls!

This is an understatement for me and when I saw this post I knew immediately I needed to elaborate a little on why!
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God never said life wasn’t going to be hard, but He did say He would always be there for us and He would get us through. My relationship with God these past two years has grown tremendously, especially after my heart attack in 2016. He has given me so many signs over the years, but these last two years His prescense has been more and more visible to me through His Signs. I now know that with Him, I can get through anything.
Change has to come from us though, because we can’t change anyone else. We can only change our reactions. We have to learn what our limits are; our priorities; and, what we are willing to endure. Change is not easy and I think everyone would agree on that! With change there are lots of emotional battles fighting the change, which can lead to depression and living through some of the toughest decisions you will ever have to make or are forced to live through. Again, God never said life would be easy.
I can say though, that God has brought me this far, and God will get me through. He has shown me so many signs, left me so many messages that I feeled totally blessed to have been able to recognize. Again, this morning He took me back to my very own book, “Break Down Your Walls: Be the Person God Created You to Be…Be a Better You!”, and it was my very own words that got me through my morning prayers and reconfirmed His Will for me and lightened my soul knowing that I am taking the right path….His path for what I need right now.
This journey so far, for sure, has been eye-opening and the signs I have received …. absolutely unforgettable!!!