As I Look Back I Thank God For Everyday!

“Signs of a Life”  – Welcome

So It BeginsAs I sit back and look over the past three and half years, I thank God every single day for giving me a second chance. I used to think I was so strong that I could handle any situation. I used to think I could help everyone simply because I wanted to. I used to think that I could help people become better people. I used to think I could make a difference. Now, I understand so much more of the bigger picture. It’s not all about you and me. We are such a small piece of the puzzle in God’s masterpiece. Think about it, without every piece to the puzzle the picture is never complete. Things happen for a reason and we cannot change anyone. We can only change our reaction to the situations we are placed in.

The older I get, the more I am seeing the puzzle pieces come together. Like a book has its Chapters; a Play has its Parts; and, a Series has its Seasons. Life too has its Parts, Chapters, and is a series of events that must happen before we can see for ourselves the amazing never-ending Life God has in store for us all. He never promised it was going to be easy and that we wouldn’t experience heartache or pain. Though, I can say that every mountain I’ve had to climb has given me strength and determination to face the next mountain knowing that God will be there to guide me and pull me to safety every single time.

This Spring, I was honored to have been asked to become the subject of a photo-journal storyboard project from an acquaintance at the time. She has since become a very good friend, and I will cherish the memories we shared during this project for the rest of my life and I know we will continue to grow our friendship for a long time. This opportunity was very enlightening to me as she shared with me recently how she was able to capture my story. Seeing her interpretation through her lens was amazing. She named her project, “Signs of a Life”. Seeing how she was able to capture the past three years of my life in photos was a true testament to her God-given talent. To hear how I touched her life was such a heart-warming feeling, it gives me chills now and left me speechless as I turned the pages of the book.

I would like to share this story and her interpretation with all of you if you are interested in following along. I experienced a heart attack in 2016 and God gave me another chance. He opened my eyes, my desires, and my realizations that I deserve more! That Chapter of my life has ended, and I am facing a new and exciting Chapter that will be a page turner for sure. God gave me a talent and a dream to write, and lately He has been after me to share my story and my love of God and how He works in my life so that I can be a light to others. Heidi has given me a unique way of sharing. You will be able to feel my story through her photos and my words.

I encourage you to follow along – you won’t be sorry!

The Rock

When I realize I need to get grounded and spend time with God, I typically turn on my spiritual playlist and start singing and praising him through song. I also love to get outside for a hike back to nature, or a walk looking up into the clouds. I love to look for signs from God, which typically come in the form of hearts, crosses, and affirmations. The other day I was driving down the road singing along with my playlist, and everywhere I looked I found a cross. They were actual crosses, or I saw a cross in a light post on the side of the road, or a cross sign, and even things that weren’t crosses, my eyes found a way to turn them into a cross. It was apparent that God was with me and I felt so blessed. I felt like I could tackle anything.

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That evening in my quiet time with God I was thanking Him for his presence earlier that day in my journal. I journal to God every day giving Him thanks and asking for His help in areas where I need support, or sending up blessings and prayers for loved ones. On that journal entry, I ended it writing, “You are my Rock!”, and then it hit me and I remembered the heart shaped rock I found a week or so ago while I was out hiking. Moments like that truly stop my heart for a second and I realize what He has done for me in my life and the blessings He is still sending my way! He truly is my rock, my fortress, my everything!

God speaks to us all differently, sometimes we just have to be open to hearing his soft voice or recognizing those signs He sends us. I encourage you to look for the signs, listen for His voice, and reach out because He is always there!

3 Years Strong

There are certain days in your life that you will never forget. Like the day you got married, the day your child was born, the day you lost a loved one, your first kiss, etc. Well for me, today marks three years since I was admitted to the hospital for chest pains. This day three years ago is where my story of self-recovery began and I was far from strong!

I never knew that stress could effect your body so greatly. The day after I was admitted, I went into cardiac arrest. It was the worst feeling in the world because I could feel it coming on, I heard the nurse call for the paddles, and I saw the agonizing look on my husband’s face before I faded away screaming to myself, “God, I’m not ready to die!”

Luckily, God wasn’t ready for me to die yet either. He still has a plan for me. He just needed to take control because my stress was out of control. He needed me to take time to heal, learn how to deal with my stress, and to take time to just ‘Be Still’. I was dealing with so many different stressors at that time in my life, I guess I just couldn’t handle any more. Thank God for stepping in and giving me the time to heal. God does this for all of from time to time. The thing is though, is that we have to recognize it for what it is – a sign from God.

Looking back on this time and these past three years, I can see so clearly His role in my life, the decision He helped me make, and now the reasons why. It blows my mind sometimes and I feel so blessed to have this relationship with Him. Whenever I am struggling now with even a little decision, I turn to God and He seems to always find a way to answer me. It may be in a scripture I read, a thought the spirit puts in my head, or just finding a cross in my path throughout the day that lets me know He is with me.

This past year alone, I made the decision to separate from my husband, I moved into my own place, and I’ve met so many amazing friends that have helped me through some of my bad days and have been here to share in some of the fun times that give me such hope for my future. My life is now free from so many stressors, yet there is still worry because now I am living alone. Though, I know God is with me and I will be ok.

Despite boughts of anxiety and stress worrying about a high blood pressure reading, or a couple of skipped beats and palpitations from time to time, I have come to rely on the Lord to get me through. I do my best to push away the fear and welcome His presence and loving arms instead of falling into the downward spiral of doubt and fear. When Satan tries to grab my attention, that’s when I reach out and grab the hand of God that is always there stretched out and reaching to pull me closer to him!

1When I look at this picture that was taken a day after I got out of the hospital, I can see the pain I was dealing with, and I feel the anxiety in the pit of my stomach, but I also see the love in my mother’s eyes, but most importantly I can see how far I have come from that time in my life. I don’t wish that experience on anyone, but I pray that everyone learns or gains a better understanding through my writing and experience of the love that God has for each of us and that He is always with us. I wish I could say that you won’t experience heartache or trials or rough times in your life, because we all know that’s not true. Life is full of disappointments, setbacks and lots of tears, but it’s how we deal with these situations and how we learn to change our reactions to the things that scare us the most. The next time you find yourself in one of these unforeseen situations, think back to a time when you felt loved and protected, and then turn your focus to God because He is always with you, loving you, and reaching His hand out to you. All you have to do is grab it!

Choose Wellness: It’s a Lifestyle

Over the next two weeks, I will walk you through 3 simple steps that you can use to practically and affordably make your home a safer and healthier place to live! This class is free, fun, and I promise to share information with you that will blow your mind and inspire you to make some big changes. We’re all in this together, and I am here to guide you every step of the way!

Home is where the heart is… there’s no place like home… home sweet home. Our home is a safe haven – a place for creating great memories, spending time with loved ones, and truly relaxing and being yourself. Everyone wants the best for their family, but have you ever considered the fact that items in your home could be making you sick? The average American home is filled with hidden toxins and familiar products that are actually poisonous and harmful. Whether you’re aware of them or not, these hidden toxins are reeking havoc on the wellness of you and your loved ones. It’s sobering to realize the very real effects these misleading products have on our health, but it’s empowering to use this knowledge and take control! In tonight’s class, we’re going to outline 3 simple steps to upgrading from a toxic home to a total Young Living™ Lifestyle!

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Why Did I choose this Lifestyle?

If you’ve been following me, you already know. If you just stumbled upon my blog this morning, you might be surprised! I was 53 years old, when I had a heart attack all from stress. April 27th will be my third anniversary since the day my life changed. Stress has always been a part of my life and I thought I could manage it pretty well. I was always able to hold things together in the moment, but when things started to settle, that’s when my stress really started to build.

April 27th, 2016 was a prime example of how I handled my stress. Except, on this day, my body had said, or God said, ‘enough is enough’!  It took me six long months to recover from Broken Heart Syndrome. I suffered a cardiac arrest, went through an angiogram procedure to check for blockages, and even had a pump inserted to my heart to relieve the pressure on my heart where the pump did the work for my heart.  All of this lead to even more stress as you can imagine! I then had to deal with the stress of potentially dying, losing my family, separation anxiety, etc…..

Not long into my recovery is when I was introduced to essential oils. At first, it was some cheap oils and a diffuser from Amazon which I had no clue of how or why to use them. So I simply started diffusing as the instructions said. It wasn’t long after than that a family member came to visit, saw the oils, and told me to throw them away immediately. Why? essential oils are good for you right!? Well, she went on to inform me that all oils are not the same and that quality matters and is very important! She began to tell me about Young Living Essential Oils, and well here I am about to tell you the same thing!

Young Living has changed my life, helped me remove all of the toxins and chemicals that we breathe in everyday not knowing how they are damaging our bodies. I learned how to use essential oils to help me support my anxieties and stress levels. I leared how to support all of my body systems and feel so much better for it! I feel like a new person!

Please join and follow along as I share with you all of the amazingness that Young Living has to offer! Let me help you take the stress out of your life! Let me help you remove the toxins and harsh chemicals from your home! Let me help you make a Lifestyle Change that will thank me for!

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Go With the Flow – Don’t Fight It!

How many times have you fought to make your way through life’s challenges, only to be winded and out of breath as if you had no sails at all to pull you along? We all face these challenges and as hard as it is to believe, God does have a reason. He has a lesson to be learned. His plan is to make you a stronger person who is able to handle this same situation a little better the next time.

During my devotional time this morning with God, I was reading along and it reminded me of a situation my son faced when he was a young teenager. Boys will be boys and on this day him and two of his buddies went down to the stream by our house. We had a lot of rain the day before and the stream was raging. I’ll never understand why he thought it would be fun to try and cross the stream in that state of rage, and I’m guessing neither did God.

The moment he fell in, what days before was a quiet trickling stream of peace and wonderment, became a raging stream of uncertainty and fear. He struggled to get his footing but that was impossible as it quickly hurled him downstream. I can only imagine what he was thinking at that time, but I doubt he was screaming for God at that age. Though I am so grateful to God for being there with him in those few moments. He grabbed the only thing he could, a tree laying across the stream. He held on with all his might, but the current was too strong. He couldn’t get his breath as the water was rushing past him. The current pulled off his shorts and he even lost his shoes. He was fighting the current and fighting God’s will at that moment.

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He then realized the only chance he had was to let go. Unbeknownst to him at that time, he let go and let God take over. You see, when we fight the Will of God, we are fighting a losing battle. God always wins. We need to learn to let go and let God lead the way, because when we go with the flow of God, we will always come out ahead better than we ever expected.

Once he let go of that tree, he was quickly moved further down stream where the waters calmed enough to enable him to grab ahold of another tree and pull himself to safety. That was one of the scariest days of our lives and I’m so grateful that God took over and brought him to safety. He could have easily hit his head on a tree or rock and been knocked out, or even worse, drowned. When he was able to pull himself from the raging waters, he and his friends were separated. As he stood their in his underwear, with no shoes, he thought to himself how am I going to get home like this? He decided to try and cross the stream again where it was not so rough and he walk home through the woods. I know, you’re probably screaming, “No! What is he thinking!” I know I was when his friends came running to the house asking if he made it home yet and proceeded to tell us the story.

Well, if you are a parent, you know that sinking feeling very well. It was the worst feeling in the world when I saw that raging stream first hand and pictured my son in those waters and started calling his name to hear no reply. Luckily, as we head home our other son was coming to tell us his brother made it home safely!

I know now though that God has big plans for this young man and his love of God has grown greatly. I wonder though if he looks back on this memory and realizes just how loved and protected he was by God on the day he learned to go with the flow!

Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’” ~ John 7:38

A Place to Belong!

Have you ever felt that you truly belonged somewhere? That it was meant to be! Have you ever met someone that you felt so connected to that you knew without a shadow of a doubt God set up that chance meeting?

Well, I have been feeling this way for a while now having met so many amazing friends through Young Living, but this picture speaks a thousand words to me! If you zoom in on it, you will recognize it is ‘so me’! A woman that just wants to be happy, have fun, and follow God’s path for the rest of her life!

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God led me to the woman on the other side of this camera and she made me feel so proud when she said she chose me to be her subject for narrative project she was working on in her photojournalism class! Her instructor said she had to choose someone she didn’t really know, but wanted to get to know. Wow! I was blown away, but she, like alot of you wanted to hear my story! Sharing my story and helping others is all I dream of.

I can honestly say ‘my story’ and transformation started at Lifepoint Church. From the day me and my best friend walked in the doors of this church we both felt at home and truy still feel like we belong here! I know God has big plans for me and this Church will play a role in it and I can’t wait to live out the rest of the story!

Thank you Heidi Marie Bell for your interest in me, and for the friendship we have created. Big things are in store for us!! God did not bring us together just for this project. He has a reason and a plan and together we are going places! 

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” ~ Jeremiah 29:11

What Would You Tell Your 6 Mo. Old Self?

This morning I jumped on Facebook and this memory popped up on my screen. It is a picture my cousin shared with me two years ago that she had run across. The first thought I had was what would I tell myself back then, knowing what I know now, if that were possible.

I’ve had some time to contemplate this thought today as it has been a rather rough few days for me – actually a rough couple of weeks. Many don’t even know. My own children don’t know how bad its been these past couple of days, but you always try to protect the ones you love most right.

Baby I’ll admit, and most of you already know this but, I have struggled with anxiety and stress most of my life. For the longest time I was able to be strong for so many and I was able to handle pretty much anything. Then as I got older, it began to take its toll on me and eventually my heart couldn’t take it any longer. That’s when the heart attack happened where I actually experienced cardiac arrest and it took me six long months to recover. I’m still recovering and now I don’t think I will ever be fully recovered. The threat is always going to be there and like this week, it gets the better of me from time to time.

So what I would like to share with everyone, and would share with my younger self, would be to to understand just how important it is to listen to your body. Take time to breathe, talk to God, and do what is right for you and your health no matter what the cost. Don’t worry what other people think because your health and happiness is what is important. If you don’t have your health, you can’t help anyone let alone yourself!

For those of you who may be dealing with some of these same issues and concerns and are given the advice to take an anti-depressant, I want you to know that it is not anything to be ashamed of. Everyone needs support from time to time, and some people need support all of the time. I know I felt like I needed to get off of mine because I didn’t want to get addicted or feel like I needed anything to live a normal life. I didn’t want nasty side effects, etc. I know alot of people feel the same way and that in itself can stress you out. I learned today though that anti-depressants have come a long way over the years and they are no longer addicting, atleast not all are, so do your research so you can feel good about the medicines you are taking and don’t be ashamed. Put your head up high and be proud that are doing what you need to do to be the best version of you!

Luckily, my cardiologist is such a caring man that I have his personal phone number and have been able to text and talk with him directly to get me in a better place of understanding what I needed to do to get my blood pressure and heart rate under control. Your life is precious and your body reacts to life’s struggles in many different ways. Ways that can land you in the hospital, or worse, just from stress. It can be a whirlwind effect as each symptom can impact another to create the perfect storm.

Today though after experiencing such an emotional morning and anxiety to the point I was ready to drive myself to the hospital, I finally went to the doctors instead and together we made the decision that I needed to go back on my anti-depressant because my body no longer handles stress well at all. The smallest amount impacts symptoms of that led to my heart attack, and then that creates symptoms of anxiety knowing I do not want to go through another heart attack and the cycle continues.

For someone who thought she had it all under control and was finally in a place of happiness and didn’t need her meds any longer, God knew better and He always has a way of grabbing you and throwing you down to make sure you listen to him. We need to take the time to be still, listen to our body, listen to God, and do what’s right. Don’t worry about what other people think. This is your life! Do what you need to do to live it and be the happiest you can be! This does not mean you are selfish! It’s ok to take care of you! God has a plan for all of us and He wants us to be happy and live out the plans He has for us!

“Things that are visible are brief and fleeting, while things that are invisible are everlasting.” ~ Sarah Young 

 

Turn Your HAVE to Into I GET To!

Instead of dreading the things you have to do, start thinking of all the things you get to do! This morning we got to get up an hour early to start our day and start sharing the love of God. We get to start following His lead on this new day He blessed us with. We get to decide on whether to reflect our attitudes positively or negatively. We get to share random acts of kindness. We get to inspire others by sharing our stories. We get to help bring people closer to God Grace. We get to change our reactions to situations that bring us down. We get to change our mindsets to always look for the positive in all circumstances.  We get to live the life God created for us. We get to be the person God created us to be. Become that person and you will be amazed at how much more God blesses you with and you too can live a life of abundance which God has waiting for you!

Turn Your Have To Into I GET TO

When I Come Home to Heaven

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Whenever you are scared or fearing death, remember this!!! I was struggling with the thought of living alone and getting sick. It’s an anxiety I’ve had to deal with since my heart attack in 2016, but the day we settled on the sale of our home I went to the Christian Book Store and God led me to this beautiful reminder! No more fear because I know He is always with me and will get me through to the other side, no matter what!

Whether it is the other side of the mountain I must climb; an illness I must beat; a decision I have to make; or simply a circumstance; opportunity; or lesson I must learn, I know I will be smarter and loved unconditionally until I meet my maker face to face!

Life Is Short

Life is so short. My Mom says all the time that the older you get, the faster the time seems to go. That is so true. I realize now just how precious our short time here on this Earth truly is. I’ve watched loved ones take their last breaths and think wow they lived a long life. Some did, but some were taken way too soon! Some you can rest easy in knowing they were saved from their pain and suffering, and others we have to constantly remind ourselves and know within our hearts and soul that God took them because He had to save them from their future suffering. A suffering we may have known nothing about, and that’s where our faith has to be strong in knowing that God always has a plan.
 
The thing we have to remember at all times though, and something that my son recenty reminded me of, is that as long as we have God, we have all that we need. I know this and I’ve preached this, but we are all human. We all have fears that we face; struggles that we have to overcome; mountains that we must climb, but we are not put in these trials for no reason. God gives us these challenges to make us stronger. We will always come out on the other side a little stronger, maybe even more confident, and realizing just how amazing our God truly is. At times, the picture is so clear and sometimes it takes us longer to see all the puzzle pieces come together before we realize God’s plan and sometimes we never will know. Those times, again, it is our faith we have to rely on knowing that God is in control.
 
There are often many times when we need to be reminded that God is always with us; God is for us, and nothing can keep God from loving us! So live today to the fullest. Live every day like there is no tomorrow. Live without regrets. When you are struggling though, take it one day at a time. Feel good about the decisions you make, after all, you made it with God. He didn’t bring you this far to let you down.
 
If you have a mission or God-given dream you feel you need to accomplish, I urge you to follow your passion and make a difference! Life is so short and the time is now. So pray BIG, ask for big things to happen, ask for His guidance and He will lead you. Feel good knowing that you are on the road to all that God has in store for you. A life of abundance!
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