The day of my heart attack is the day I cried out to God that I was not ready to die! I had no voice or strength at that moment, so all I could do was yell in my mind over and over again that I was not ready to die! I will never forget the feeling of sensation that I felt come over my body and then watching the numbers and lines on the EKG monitor start to fade away. I screamed so loud in my head until I wasn’t able to any longer. I was ready to put up a fight but didn’t have the strength, so being Bold was my only option.
Ever since that day, God has challenged me in so many ways and I continue to challenge God as well. My recovery took six months, but my transformation lasted two to three years. The self-development I went through during my recovery period and after literally made me the person I am today.
A couple years after my recovery and as a result of my self-development and personal transformation , I found myself going through a divorce. Something I never thought would happen. God had different plans for me and my life I guess, because I realized how I was being held back. I realized that I am enough and my life matters. More importantly, I learned that I can’t change anyone except myself; and that’s where the transformation began.
“In the day when I cried out, You answered me, and made me bold with strength in my soul.” ~ Psalm 138:3
I grew closer to God it seemed every day through my daily devotional time. I began journalling to God daily as well; and I challenged Him to send me signs. Hearts and crosses were something I always looked for or gravitated to. So one day when I was walking in the woods to get away from all the noise in my head, I was looking for some signs from God that I was on the right path when I stumbled upon a heart-shaped rock, or so I thought. I wasn’t sure though if that was a true sign from God because the rock wasn’t clearly in the shape of a heart. So I again challenged God and literally asked Him out loud if that was the best He could do. Immediately, I thought to myself, ‘How dare I ask that of God’. Then, within thirty seconds later, He sent me a Sign that was obviously His amazing work, because only God could have pulled that off! From that day forward, He continually sends me His Best and I’m not afraid to ask for what I want.
I challenge you now to Be Bold! Be confident in expecting God’s abundance and be grateful for everything He has given you. As He continues to bless you, He gives you strength as you draw closer still to Him knowing that He is always with you, for you, and is leading you on His path for His Will to be done through you. Again, I say, Be Bold! Let His Light shine through you and bless others!